Every last Friday of the month, my church in Mankato, MN holds a prayer night called Fire in the Night. It is live worship and prayer from 7 p.m. to midnight. I love it! It’s one of my favorite prayer meetings. On June 29th, 2012 I wrote this while we were worshiping with the Word.
Lord, you wanted me when no one wanted me and you took from me what no one else wanted. My past tells me that I am not good enough for you but your word tells me that I was made for you.
I thank you Jesus, that you truly see me whole. Without blemish and without blame. God, I still cannot comprehend your mercy and grace. I still can’t fathom how great you are. You are uncreated. No one made you merciful, gracious, and full of love. You just are. You didn’t even have to create us. In creating us you even gave us our own will to chose to love you.
Lord, as I meditate in Ephesians 1:3-6, I ask that you encounter me and bring me healing and deliverance through all I have gone through. God I ask that you take away comparison from my heart. The comparison that states that it could of been worse. I ask that you take away the voice that tells me my problems are not a big deal. That I’m over reacting. My whole life I have been told that I overreact. Now I look at my scars as if I drew them in myself, but I didnt, these cuts are real. Jesus only you can heal. Give me beauty from ashes.
You say I am without blame and I believe your word over mine.
I love you daddy.